Faded

Every night i can't sleep
since you turn your back away from me
everything has slipped away and its over
don't know why it happened
i thought we'll last until the end?
but you run away and set me free

you made me like a flower away from the sun
you prove the meaningless of life when you're not around
now i'm asking you to stay, come back to me

you can't run while i can't hide
lost and cold in this world all around me has faded
i can't go on alone without you
i am gone in my way
and its hard to me to see
cause it's faded...

Everyday it's all the same
inside my mind it's always your name
i think i'm falling down this is crazy
you break apart, my heart in two
i thought it's gonna be me and you
but now i'm bleeding like i do

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what happen bout the TO HAVE AND TO HOLD?

thank you

thank you

My Green Tree

Its like yesterday when i disassembled my GREEN TREE (My term for my christmas tree). Last sunday, i brought out the box which contains my green tree, and today my green tree is once again standing and blinking :) thnx to my cousin mia, my friend daryl and teacher joji for helping me in decorating my green tree :) 

Talking about my green tree, it means that christmas season is coming... season of love and sharing. 

but for me, its a season of thinking, reminiscing and hahaha should i say drinking? oooppsss hehehehe

for the past 10 years of my life i've been celebrating my christmas and new year's eve alone.  

People are asking why, my answer is? its my life and maybe my destiny :) 

i've been looking for words, words that comes out together to form an answer to my questions. WHY? and WHEN?