My Year 2008

2008 is almost over, it was like yesterday when i celebrated new year, and now 16 days more to go and another year is coming... I must admit 2008 was really one of the best years i had. For the past 28 years, i have never been so interested in my life until this year.

When you ask wholeheartedly, it pours... Great things had happen to me this year, all i have right now are the memories, wonderful memories that comes my way for the last 12 months. But i cannot negate the fact that there are also sad memories, memories that i believe could make me a better person ahead.

I have been to many ups and downs, but in spite of those moments, i have learned to pick up pieces of me and move on. Life goes on for me. I have met a lot of people this year, I have met new friends, new lessons, new challenges and made new dreams.

Dreams... one time this year, i met someone from my past. Someone that i didn't expect that i will meet again but fortunately, our paths crossed again. Things were so different at first, but when we started to communicate, it was like we never lived different lives at all... we realize we still have things in common, things that brings us closer to each other.

For you: (you know who you are) "I wanted to reach out and hold your hands, take you out from darkness and show you the light. I wanted to open more doors for you, and let you see that there's still a big world outside full of hopes and inspiration. but as i touched your face, i realize that you're like a water... i can see you, i can feel you, but i can't hold you. You are like the air... i can feel you and breathe you but again i can't hold you. You gave me questions that i know i have answers but i don't have the words to construct it. I have to live with the memories you left behind, memories that lives in my heart and mind, but again i can't hold them... There is only one thing that's left in me, that is To Love and To Cherish, To Have and To Hold............. On. ----"

We all know there are differences in this world, differences that makes people special and unique. But in spite of those differences, we still wanted to live and dream that someday, one day, what we have dreamed will come true.

To all of you, Thank You for sharing this year with me, thank you for giving me memories to live, challenges to face and life to look forward. I promise to stay the same Harvey you know... I promise to become a better person, better than you know. Together we will leave 2008 behind, but in my heart i believe we will be together in facing the years to come... Let's just take one step at a time and we'll be there...

Thank you Jesus for this life... I know you will be with me in every step that i'll take, in every dreams that i'll make. I honor thee...

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to All...


Harvs

Faded

Every night i can't sleep
since you turn your back away from me
everything has slipped away and its over
don't know why it happened
i thought we'll last until the end?
but you run away and set me free

you made me like a flower away from the sun
you prove the meaningless of life when you're not around
now i'm asking you to stay, come back to me

you can't run while i can't hide
lost and cold in this world all around me has faded
i can't go on alone without you
i am gone in my way
and its hard to me to see
cause it's faded...

Everyday it's all the same
inside my mind it's always your name
i think i'm falling down this is crazy
you break apart, my heart in two
i thought it's gonna be me and you
but now i'm bleeding like i do

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what happen bout the TO HAVE AND TO HOLD?

thank you

thank you

My Green Tree

Its like yesterday when i disassembled my GREEN TREE (My term for my christmas tree). Last sunday, i brought out the box which contains my green tree, and today my green tree is once again standing and blinking :) thnx to my cousin mia, my friend daryl and teacher joji for helping me in decorating my green tree :) 

Talking about my green tree, it means that christmas season is coming... season of love and sharing. 

but for me, its a season of thinking, reminiscing and hahaha should i say drinking? oooppsss hehehehe

for the past 10 years of my life i've been celebrating my christmas and new year's eve alone.  

People are asking why, my answer is? its my life and maybe my destiny :) 

i've been looking for words, words that comes out together to form an answer to my questions. WHY? and WHEN?

Savor the Coffee

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, were talking at a reunion and decided to go visit their old university professor, now retired. During their visit the conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in their work and lives.

Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups- porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite, telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the alumni had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "Notice that all of the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones.

While it normal for you to want only the best for yourselves that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee.
In most cases it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink.

What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups...and then you began eyeing each other's cups.

Now consider this: Life is the coffee; your job, money, and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life. The type of cup one has does not define, nor change the quality of Life a person lives. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided us."

God makes the coffee, man chooses the cups. The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.

Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly.

Forwarded to my email. I find it nice and meaningful, so i thought of sharing it... Enjoy!!!

Lessons in Life (2)

"Kung hindi mo mahal and isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..""Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."

"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo." "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba." "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang." "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

"Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin." "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din." "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang." "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya.

Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa." "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

"Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?"Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka." "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

Today is my birthday. Why do I feel so sad?

Today I made 28 something. I am so sad. "Not because of my age because with age comes wisdom" but because it was just another day. Nobody made me feel special today. I needed to write my feelings out and really did not have a question but I know I have to ask one so, here goes. How many people have felt this way on their birthday? (got this from a post 6 months ago... just thought i felt the same way...)

Mine is worst, for the past 2 years, i've been celebrating my birthday away from home... i almost forgot how it was having a birthday party at home with friends and love ones...

Happy Birthday to myself....