My Green Tree

Its like yesterday when i disassembled my GREEN TREE (My term for my christmas tree). Last sunday, i brought out the box which contains my green tree, and today my green tree is once again standing and blinking :) thnx to my cousin mia, my friend daryl and teacher joji for helping me in decorating my green tree :) 

Talking about my green tree, it means that christmas season is coming... season of love and sharing. 

but for me, its a season of thinking, reminiscing and hahaha should i say drinking? oooppsss hehehehe

for the past 10 years of my life i've been celebrating my christmas and new year's eve alone.  

People are asking why, my answer is? its my life and maybe my destiny :) 

i've been looking for words, words that comes out together to form an answer to my questions. WHY? and WHEN?